When i fell in love with my Bestfriend !!

I read and heard a lot that the best relationship anyone has is the one with the "Best Friend".. But actually i didn't realize what's different in that relationship or if we are not best friends we can manage to be friends, but it's never the same, until it happened ! I never ever thought or even imagined that it could happen but when it happened it is just WOW .. It's totally different not because i was in an unsucssedful relationship but because it's really different to fall in love with someone who looks like your soul, who has many things in common with you effortessly not because you want to have something in common and make the effort to find it, you already know each other too well, you have that unique connection. For me it wad an outstanding experience i had that one who i used to run to when i have a problem or not feeling good or when i have a booming news or something i am really exceited about and he always has the patience to listen and handle me in my worst and to share with me my happiest moments, he is always a source of inspiration,encouragement and above all safety and security. For the first time i knew the meaning of how to be valnurable i can just say what's on my mind without being judged and he can easily understand my scattered thoughts and unorganized words, he can read my mind and just do what i want even without asking, he makes me feel like a princess and no one is compared to me and he never stops saying this or proving this, he loved my soul and made me love myself again even when i am still full of wounds and pain, simply he went through everything with me the good and bad, he is like a compass for me when i get lost, he spoonfeed me life, he gives me confidence, i am fearless when i am with him, he can feel me on every level i never felt i am alone, i am so me when i am with him, Everything is as easy as breathing.. Now i know why falling in love with your best friend is the best thing could ever happen even if it happened once in a life time it's unforgettable !! 

Sometimes...

Sometimes we have to give up on the most true,pure & honest love to keep something more valuable. Sometimes we cannot be selfish so we choose the right thing rather than what we really want from deep within the corners of our minds and deep down in our hearts and between all those things we realize that nothing in this life is free !!

I've learned more from pain,than i could ever learned from pleasure.

I've been through so many changes in the last few months on every aspect in my life. On the business level i faced a BIG change when my boss left the company in day and night i found myself responsible for the department i am working in, i have to take care of every single tiny detail, that was the first test for me to ACCEPT change, i am not a person who love major changes but i had to adapt with the new situation with an open heart and mind. The second change in my life was on the emotional level, a decision which i had to take long long time ago maybe it was late but it was on the right time, i had to let go the one i really loved, trusted and gave everything i could give the care, the support and maybe to extend that i could give up on everything just to be with him i prayed almost every day and night for 3 years to be with him. But i found out that i gave out all my emotions to the wrong person i ignored so many things, i accepted things i should'nt have accepted, i was ignored and rejected,emotionally abused and maybe cheated on but i thought that my love could change everything but sometimes it's not enough, after holding on for a year i felt that GOD put him in my life to give me a lesson that i will never forget and the conclusion is that i am more cautious and now i know to whom i will open my heart to. The third change is that my Grandmother peacfuly left this cruel world to the next world where she is younger, happier and feels no pain, she wasn't just a grandma she showered me with tenderness and love and supported me in every phase of my life, for the first time i admit that something can break me and her death broke me. I changed a lot and i was wondering why!! Now i knew it's very normal not to be the person i used to be after all that frequent quick changes i am going through those are some changes which are major but there are other but not as significant as the three above.. I learned how to be surrounded with fear of the unknown and not having a single answer for all the question going on my mind, when praying is the only way and accepting the changes is the best solution.

Souls can cross any Border

Borders separate countries , we can withhold words , we may need to decide to take a flight and meet someone who is far away, may be many reasons can stop us ,ego or anger. But also we can never control or stop the Soul from flying , we have thoughts that never ask for permission to have someone on our minds. When we feel we can't talk or go to the people we love and they are distant at least don't stop your soul and thoughts to fly to them.

All is Calm , All is Bright

Christmas is the best time of the year , not only because of putting up the Christmas tree or the gifts and the songs that bring cheer to our hearts or the spiritual meaning of that amazing time but also with being with people who you really love and feel a family member among them and even when it's cold outside you feel warm with the spirit and the laughter deeply from the heart.

Learn to make from the few hours of celebration a memory that lasts to the next year.

May the joyous spirit of Christmas 

remain with you throughout the 

coming year 

Here is to a Brilliant New Year ☼

Few days and 2015 will knock the doors but how should we start it ? what are the plans ? , it should be different. This is the first time for me to have a new year's resolution and i want to share :

1.By the beginning of the year i will have a new lifestyle, i want to be more healthy, i want to be more positive.

2.I will achieve my goals from whatever angle i won't let any challenge to be a stone on my way and if happened i will make a step and be a fire starter and make it a step to success.

3.I will visit a new destination.

4.I will worry less.

5.I will focus on the good.

6.I will stay strong 

7. I will save more money.

8. I will be more spiritual. 

9.I will manage my time better.

10.I will work hard.

11.I will be a better me.

The best thing anyone can feel is to have a dream and turn this dream to a plan and the plan to a step we have to wear our unseen wings to fly as high as we can and to have dreams to be free and alive but at the same time we need to keep our strong roots like an old tree deep in the ground to know where we are standing.

Letzter Tanz

Diese Hoffnung..

Auf dem Weg deiner Abwesenheit

Ich habe gut geschuftet, ohne dich ist mein Leben 

nur eine glänzende Dekoration, ohne Bedeutung