I've learned more from pain,than i could ever learned from pleasure.

I've been through so many changes in the last few months on every aspect in my life. On the business level i faced a BIG change when my boss left the company in day and night i found myself responsible for the department i am working in, i have to take care of every single tiny detail, that was the first test for me to ACCEPT change, i am not a person who love major changes but i had to adapt with the new situation with an open heart and mind. The second change in my life was on the emotional level, a decision which i had to take long long time ago maybe it was late but it was on the right time, i had to let go the one i really loved, trusted and gave everything i could give the care, the support and maybe to extend that i could give up on everything just to be with him i prayed almost every day and night for 3 years to be with him. But i found out that i gave out all my emotions to the wrong person i ignored so many things, i accepted things i should'nt have accepted, i was ignored and rejected,emotionally abused and maybe cheated on but i thought that my love could change everything but sometimes it's not enough, after holding on for a year i felt that GOD put him in my life to give me a lesson that i will never forget and the conclusion is that i am more cautious and now i know to whom i will open my heart to. The third change is that my Grandmother peacfuly left this cruel world to the next world where she is younger, happier and feels no pain, she wasn't just a grandma she showered me with tenderness and love and supported me in every phase of my life, for the first time i admit that something can break me and her death broke me. I changed a lot and i was wondering why!! Now i knew it's very normal not to be the person i used to be after all that frequent quick changes i am going through those are some changes which are major but there are other but not as significant as the three above.. I learned how to be surrounded with fear of the unknown and not having a single answer for all the question going on my mind, when praying is the only way and accepting the changes is the best solution.