Here is to a Brilliant New Year ☼

Few days and 2015 will knock the doors but how should we start it ? what are the plans ? , it should be different. This is the first time for me to have a new year's resolution and i want to share :

1.By the beginning of the year i will have a new lifestyle, i want to be more healthy, i want to be more positive.

2.I will achieve my goals from whatever angle i won't let any challenge to be a stone on my way and if happened i will make a step and be a fire starter and make it a step to success.

3.I will visit a new destination.

4.I will worry less.

5.I will focus on the good.

6.I will stay strong 

7. I will save more money.

8. I will be more spiritual. 

9.I will manage my time better.

10.I will work hard.

11.I will be a better me.

The best thing anyone can feel is to have a dream and turn this dream to a plan and the plan to a step we have to wear our unseen wings to fly as high as we can and to have dreams to be free and alive but at the same time we need to keep our strong roots like an old tree deep in the ground to know where we are standing.

Letzter Tanz

Diese Hoffnung..

Auf dem Weg deiner Abwesenheit

Ich habe gut geschuftet, ohne dich ist mein Leben 

nur eine glänzende Dekoration, ohne Bedeutung

Glimpses of a "Love Story" ღ

Finding love wasn't the only thing going on her mind she never ever planned to be in a relationship specially in that early age. 

It's true that you can fall in love with the most unexpected person in the most unexpected time. 

Let's go to the Flashback 

She was 19 years old, first year in college she is not planning to love anyone her  future and her studies were the only priorities in her life she is  not afraid to be alone ,she is still young and have a lot to do.

"Till" a friend suddenly came and broke those strict rules, 23 years good looking man who is very mature , honest , says what he feels and does what he feels nothing can stop him from dreaming and planning a better future , sensitive and strong at the same time he makes fun of everything but very serious when it's needed, he knows the value of everything in his life and has a cause to fight for in life , being with people is an essential thing and hiding in his own shell from time to time is a great need that should be respected, a man who is mysterious and never fall for anyone. All those qualities attracted her but she has those strict rules and she doesn't know if she is ready to love or if she loves him will they be together till the end or not ? but little by little and step by step he totally broke those rules and turned her life upside down with care and tenderness she started to fall in love with that "unexpected guy". 

Unlike the normal love stories she started to be more serious in her studies he was encouraging her to succeed he knew how to get out the best of her, he was always by her side in every step. 

She found in him a brother , a father , a true loyal friend and a lover all that in one person, and the 28th of November started to be unusual day in her life, this date holds this amazing experience and all the love and the ups and downs and that guy who changed this stubborn girl's mind about everything in life.

He could be the one who makes her cry and the one who get her broken pieces back again , he never hurt her with a word , and never left a scratch on her heart or a bad memory on her mind. He knew how to love her , to deal with her jealousy and mood swings and she loved him like no one ever loved and understood him like no one could, they loved their similarities and appreciated their differences.

He knows very well how strong she is and how she can move her life and he knows that her eyes can be so private and proud and no one is allowed to see her crying but he didn't know that without him she seems so happy in the crowd but deep inside she is turning in the emptiness of this cold world around her, and that she is not waiting for another one to love because she knows that there is always one person comes into life and couldn't be replaced. 

It's not about to be with anyone don't be afraid to be alone as long as you are not with the right one who can turn your life upside down and when he/she is not in your life for any reason but he passes on your mind you remember him with all the good things he/she did. 

Like Mother .. Like Daughter ♥

In my eyes my Mum is not like any other mother .. i know all mothers are amazing but my Mum has something special she is a mixture of Strength , Firmness and absolute Tenderness.

Her hug can say a lot , she is my true meaning of how a mother should be , how she raised me up how she sacrificed everything just for me her time , her money , the sleepless nights she spent to take care of me, her look when she knows that i am not okay and her voice when i do something made her happy.

The loveliest word i hear is" you look a lot like your Mum" i feel so proud that i am like this wonderful woman a woman who is always wearing her unseen crown

We walked a journey together and that made us stronger in every challenge and the hard times we passed through .

she is my idol in everything she does , she made me responsible , she made me strong , she made the one who i am today.

My Mum will be always My Rock :) 

Different but " Bestfriends "

Bestfriend a word just a word but it has a very deep meaning not every friend who is good and close  is a bestfriend , this friend is "Best" for a reason :).

Through my life at school , in the college,at work and in the language courses i met lots of friend who are really good i can't deny i can't imagine my life without friends in every place i step, they are a lot i love them all and i think they love me too, but wait.. it's normal that friends are  good and stand by each other but there is only one friend who's the Best among this number of friends i have in my life a friend who is different in everything , who i can call her for a good cry and i know she won't judge me , the one who i can tell her anything Oops!! not anything the most personal things in my life which no one should know , the only friend who i can't wait even for a second to tell her what happened today. 

Who said we are not different we are we couldn't be typical in everything but that difference makes us stronger, sometimes for many reasons we are not on the same page but that doesn't mean we don't understand each other without saying a word. 

She will always be the one who catch me before i fall , the one who will always have that special place in my heart. 

One of the meanings of her name is  "Diamond " and diamond is my birth stone now i knew why there is a special bond and something unbreakable. 

My Bestfriend .. My Rock 

Positive People can feel down too !

People never expect that positive people in their lives could feel down , disappointed or even Hopeless , How ? Because they are humans not aliens :D , they feel hurt , sometimes they feel that things and even the whole world is not on their side.

I'am known among my friends that i am that positive girl who turns every single negative thing in her life to that weird word called "Positive"some times it's a material to make fun of which makes me happy i never feel annoyed and sometimes it's a need for my friends to hear a different point of view or to feel that there is a light at the end of the tunnel in their darkest moments which makes me feel that i have a purpose in life.

Although every now and then i feel down , i lose interest in everything in my life but this only happens when i let negative thoughts control my mind ..

Positive thinking is not a hard thing it's doable when we want, it needs practice the same way when we learn a new language to master it, we need to believe that it has an impact on every aspect of our lives starting from the coffee poured on our clothes in the morning before we go out which can ruin thw whole day  to the major life events that can take place in our lives it's all about how we look at things how we attract what we want and get. It takes time but could be achieved.

How being jobless made me find my aim ?!

It's totally unusual to feel happy when you quit or lose your job feeling useless, bored and unproductive , no income ,  are totally normal feelings but feeling happy is a bit weird but actually i had all those feelings + feeling Happy :D Yes " HAPPY " .. and here is why!

Let me take you to a short flashback 

From the first year in College i am working every summer vacation except the fourth year because it was hard for me to manage work and final graduation project and it was very important for me to succeed and then after graduation i worked in Vodafone it was my best experience , the place , the team spirit and everything but at some point i felt it's not my job , my future is not in that place even if it was a good experience and good salary and also it was too early to feel that ! only 3 months ..
then i took the step i resigned for me it wasn't an easy decision i knew very well the consequences i will be bored for 3 years i didn't stay at home at all , no salary but it was a must for me to take this step after one month or less i applied for a new job it was the total opposite experience but i was more patient i worked for 6 months and then it was a total chaos in every aspect staying at home in that case was much better for me ..

From that time it's eight months now i am staying at home jobless but i started to be more in touch with what i love and what i need , my hobbies , i started my German course and finished 9 levels in one year i met my friends and family and got back my social life i started to think about what i want , what's my aim , what are my dreams and how to make it true and to achieve my goals , i started to do Yoga for the first time in my life and i found out i couldn't do all those things because i hadn't no time even to think i was like a machine , i eat , i drink , i sleep , i work but is that the purpose of my life ? is that what i gain from working ?

I was always thinking that i am aimless and i have no plans for my future it wasn't a mistake but it was a mindset  , now i have, now i am working to achieve my goals i turned my dreams into plans i took steps and losing my job now is nothing for me,  but the step itself  was everything :)

Stay Strong book by Demi Lovato

A book caught my eyes in a book store i felt inspired just reading the title , it was like it could be the title of this phase in my life, i need to remind my self to stay strong no matter what's happening around me from challenges , negativity or losing hope at some point ..